You’d think I’d learn…
Posted on 22nd June 2007 by antuan goodwinI found this morning that my first thoughts of the day were of yesterday. There’s a pretty good reason for this as I awakened to a pretty mild case of indigestion. You’d think I’d learn to stop eating IHOP at 1am. But as I learned (or rather, finally admitted) yesterday, I have a tendency to repeat mistakes.
I know that I digest slowly. This is nothing new. Yet at least once per month, I find myself at a Waffle House or IHOP at 2am… eating. And every time, I wake up feeling sick and I say, “I’m never doing that again.”
Since here I am, complaining about indigestion, you can see that I don’t really ever take my own advice. This seems to be a theme in my life… I know what I should be doing, but I quite often don’t do it.
Need proof? Just pop over to brilliantbrown and read my relationship articles. Plenty of good ideas there, right? Well then why do I have so many issues/problems with the relationships in my practical life? I don’t take my own advice. It’s a character flaw, because I honestly believe that, like my bouts with indigestion, if I’d only listen to the good sense I was blessed with, then life would roll more smoothly.
This realization came to me when I met a young lady last night at a social who, during the course of conversation, opened up and shared some of the issues she was having with her life. Issues of loneliness, co-dependency and low self esteem/confidence… these are issues that I’ve dealt with personally. Her story mirrored mine. It was really easy for me to give advice and to try to help her with her issues.
When we’d left and ended up at the dreaded IHOP, AJ pointed out that it was interesting that I never seemed to take my own advice. He wasn’t judgmental, merely observant. I couldn’t really refute his claim because he was right. I make the same relationship mistakes over and over again. I do the kind of things that I’d call someone else a fool for doing. Seeing the hypocrisies in my life have motivated me to make changes in my life and to become a doer, not a sayer.
So have made note of the problem and formally resolving to deal with it (i.e. practice what I preach), I guess we’ll see how well I do. If I’m complaining about indigestion on some random morning next month, kindly remind me of this resolution.
